Have you noticed I didn’t do a week 3 or 4 update for you guys? Yeah, I kind of fell off the journaling wagon. I stopped having a desire to journal on a daily basis. Partly because this lifestyle starts becoming more normal by now. Also because I felt like I needed it less and less. The journaling really helped me through the first two weeks. I needed it to get all my feelings out about what I was going through. The last two weeks of the Whole30 were so much easier – in a way – that I wasn’t thinking about it all the time like I was during the first two weeks. The changes you make become more normal and no longer seem like the end of the world!
I did write down a few thoughts during the last couple weeks that I’ll share with you, though. Here are some observations and overall feelings from week 3 of the Whole30.
* I really hate eating out. It’s no fun anymore. I know on week 2 I said it was fine, but I kind of hate it now. Which might be a good thing. I’d much rather eat at home because I know what I can and can’t have and I don’t feel like I’m missing out. When I know there’s no sugar in things, it widens the range of what I can eat.
* I’m kind of sick of my family eating non-compliant foods in front of me ALL. THE. TIME!! I know it’s my choice to be on this program, but it’s frustrating nonetheless!
* I’m slowly learning to cook. I made cauliflower soup for the first time. And that’s the first time I’ve ever made homemade soup in my life! I’m ridiculously proud of myself! Seriously!
* At this point, I really don’t want to do this past 30 days (some people do a Whole60 or even Whole100). I have plans to celebrate my birthday on the 31st and I plan to eat non-compliant foods that day. I don’t want to get all crazy with it, but I do plan to celebrate. I know I’m not done with my food issues yet and I love feeling the way I do from this program. I’m thinking about going Paleo long term – maybe about 90%, so I can still have treats every now and then. I think that’s okay. As long as I don’t let it get out of hand! I’m not going back to where I was before I started this.
* I don’t crave sugar. What’s that all about?!
* I have no desire to drink pop (soda) anymore. This is huge for me since I LOVED pop before starting this program!
* I also started exercising harder in the last two weeks. I was exercising to a walking DVD in the first two weeks, but in the last two weeks, I decided to turn it up a little. I started working out to Bikini Body Mommy videos on YouTube. I’ve done them before and really enjoyed them, so I thought I’d try them again. Version 3.0 recently came out, so it was perfect timing. I’m really glad I took it easier in the first couple weeks to focus more on my food and getting an exercise routine together. I needed to set those healthy habits before I upped the ante. But now I’m doing the BBM videos and I absolutely love them and can see a difference already! The videos are pretty short, so I try to push myself as hard as possible during the workouts. I’m going to try to get all 90 days in and will hopefully see a big difference when I’m done.
Okay, so that was week 3. Week 4 was a little different. I kind of messed up by starting to buy goodies at the grocery store for when I would be done with the Whole30. They sat in my pantry taunting me every single day. It was such a stupid thing to do and really threw my off track. I didn’t stray from the program really – other than eating more (compliant) snacks – but I couldn’t stop thinking about the treats I could have in just a few short days. I literally almost cheated a few times because those treats were so tempting! It wasn’t a good situation!
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I ended up finishing my Whole30 and felt (and still feel) so proud of myself! I was smiling all morning on the 31st! It felt so good to have stuck with it. Knowing that I could do this crazy hard “diet” for 30 days felt amazing! My skin was clearer than it had been my entire adult life, I was sleeping like a baby, my clothes were loosening up – I actually started wearing a pair of my “I’ll wear these when I lose weight” jeans that I’d never been able to comfortably fit in! I lost 8 pounds, my belly wasn’t all in knots all the time, and my depression was lessening. I really felt amazing and proud. I’m not one to take on challenges like these. I always make up stupid excuses for why I don’t want to. But this time I did it (with a LOT of support along the way) and proved to myself that I could!
I really would recommend this program to everyone. It doesn’t matter if you have weight to lose or not. The ways your body changes over 30 days of whole eating are insane! You’ll really learn how all the “crap” you eat affects you on so many different levels. This program is not recommended long term. It’s more of a reset button to help you get back on track.
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I talked a little bit on week 3 about my plans for after the Whole30, but now it’s over so I can gauge more what will work and what won’t. So far, I have kind of gone back to how I was eating pre-Whole30. I hate even typing that because I don’t want to be a disappointment. I want to be this perfect Whole30-er that has totally changed her life from this program and has a few additions into her diet, but is still eating whole foods. And I don’t want to be discouraging to those going through the Whole30 or thinking about it and now think that it’s not worth it because you think you’ll just go back to how things were.
In the few days since I’ve started eating the old way, my face has totally broken out and my stomach is back to feeling crappy every few days. It doesn’t feel good to feel this way. I know I need to change and I need to do it before it gets out of hand. So yesterday I decided to eat all Paleo for just one day. I ate compliant foods all day to try to get myself back on track. I’m not sure it will do any good for the rest of the week, but we’ll see what happens. I was thinking yesterday morning that maybe I should try eating the Whole30 diet (or Paleo) a few days a week and then just do my best on the other days. Maybe half and half. There are foods I really like that are compliant, so that’s not the problem. The problem is sugar mostly, and gluten.
I don’t think I can go through life saying “I shouldn’t eat that” because I never stick with it. Instead, I just eat and eat and eat and then feel crappy about my decisions. I need to have some sort of program that I need to adhere to. I think going at it this way will be a way of successfully eating right. We’ll see what happens, though. Maybe I’ll have to check back and give you guys an update in a few months!