As you may know by now, I’m doing the Whole30 challenge this month. Today is the first day of my second week! I can’t believe I’ve made it this far already! It feels so good to be able to write that I made it through my first week. Honestly, I didn’t think it would be this hard. There were definitely some days, one in particular, that I really wanted to quit! But I’m still here, so I thought I’d share how my first week went … in case you’re thinking of trying the Whole30 out for yourself!
I started the Whole30 on January 1st. Not as a New Year’s Resolution so much. More because I was totally going to eat all the sweets I wanted in December and January 1st sounded like a good time to do a little restart. I have to preface this with saying that I totally binged in December, knowing I was going to do the Whole30 the next month. I pretty much stuffed my face with anything and everything in sight. It was sad, really. And I felt like crap! I knew it wasn’t a good thing to do, but I did it anyway!
Regardless of how I started, this program has kicked my butt so far and I’m starting to like it! Here’s how week one went …
* I missed sugar … a LOT!! I also noticed how easily (and often!) I grab for food all day. And it’s not even that I’m hungry. If it’s out and in plain view, I want to eat it.
* I had some headaches (probably from caffeine withdrawal), but I’m not missing pop too much at this point. This is surprising since I drank a LOT of pop in December.
* From the beginning I started to realize how difficult it is to eat out. We were driving home, across the state, and the kids and hubby wanted lunch, but of course, I couldn’t have most of what they wanted. They stopped at Subway and since I didn’t have the energy to figure out what was Whole30 compliant, I just had my hubby run in and grab me some apples along with their meals. They were boring and really not that great. This made the 2.5 hour ride home pretty difficult.
* Pretty much all I ate the first day was eggs, sweet potatoes, and kiwis. It was kinda boring and I know I can’t eat like this every day or I’ll go crazy!
* I exercised for 30 minutes to a walking DVD. I feel like such an old lady sharing this with you. It’s definitely not the most intense workout ever, but it works for me. I decided from the beginning that I wasn’t going to kill myself with my workouts. This challenge is more about food for me than it is exercising. And since I know that any exercise is better than none, I chose to do this 5 days a week. It’s something I know I can stick with. Plus, I still sweat doing it, so I figure it’s working!
* I wasn’t starving when I woke up today! This is huge for me because when I eat bad, I wake up totally famished first thing in the morning. I can tell that the healthier I eat, the less hungry I am!
* I was super moody this afternoon. I was up and down and up and down. Not fun!
* Since about halfway through December when I started binging, I had no desire to be intimate with my husband. I felt like I could hide my “bad behavior” from others, but since he’s the only one who sees me naked, he sees all my secrets. He sees all of me and I was just so embarrassed and felt so much shame for what I’d done (binging). I still feel this way by the second day and am really hoping it changes soon. For his sake and mine! 😉
* I’m still having headaches, but I got a nap today, so that helps a ton! My husband kind of rocks at letting me sleep when I need to!
* My face looks horrible and I know it’s all due to my horrible diet. I really hope this clean eating will start helping it soon because I hate it. Speaking of skin, I started using grapeseed oil and witch hazel on my face today (I started using coconut oil a few days ago, too). I read and reread my friend’s natural skin care routine and I’m trying to stick to it, too. Not every single detail – I’m not sure I can do the oatmeal just yet! – but I think the more natural, the better!
* Exercised for 30 minutes to my walking DVD (see above). I feel exhausted afterward, like I need to lie down for several minutes exhausted, but I’m hoping that improves over time.
* I feel like the “toxins” in my face are all being pushed out. It’s probably from the coconut oil/witch hazel/grapeseed oil combo, but maybe a little from my clean eating, too.
* I had a really hard time mentally preparing to eat out today. I actually felt like I was going to cry, I was so discouraged. But after getting some encouragement and ideas from our awesome Facebook group, I felt a little better. Then, after I ordered confidently and got my meal and ate it, I felt proud and accomplished! I had successfully eaten a healthy meal at a restaurant even though there were unhealthy choices all around me! It felt so empowering to make those decisions and it gave me a glimpse of how I can do this when I’m done with the Whole30, too!
* I had a really hard time at my nephew’s birthday party and was feeling really “left out” because I couldn’t eat all my favorite things. I know I would have gone overboard and wouldn’t even feel satisfied if I had been able to eat there. I would have just stuffed my face because I liked the food and it was a “special occasion” – one of my biggest downfalls and excuses to eat. It’s great that I didn’t have a chance to do that this time and that I had a reason to stay the course.
* After the party, I was so upset about not being able to eat that I ate a TON of pecans and two clementines. I know that isn’t healthy behavior even if it is semi-healthy food. I need to keep working on that part. I can’t binge on anything, even if it is healthy food. I need to find a different outlet for those feelings!
* I woke up feeling pretty good, but starving. Remember I said I wasn’t waking up starving? Well, today that wasn’t the case!
* I feel jealous of everyone else eating “normal” food, but keep reminding
myself that it’s a privilege to be able to eat nutritious, healthy, clean, whole food. Not everyone has that ability.
* I’m starting to realize how much I would have eaten if I were “allowed” to. There were SO many things that people ate around me this weekend that I wanted. Before this “diet”, I would have eaten all of them. I have no sense of moderation and no ability to only say yes to certain things. I want it all! This kind of scares me because it’s okay on the Whole30, but what happens when I finish and I have to do this willpower thing by myself? I’m hoping what I learn during the Whole30 will become lifelong wisdom. I really don’t want to go back to where I was!
* I’m also realizing how much crap is in our food and it makes me mad! I wish food companies cared more about our health and less about making money!
* Exercised for 30 minutes
* I’m still feeling angry that I can’t eat whatever I want to.
* I’m so sad today. I’m sad that I can’t cook worth crap. I actually had tears in my eyes about it this morning. It’s so frustrating because I feel like I can only eat 5 things because I don’t know how to make anything else. Note to self : must learn to cook!
* I have a headache again. I’m beginning to think this will be a daily occurrence.
* I’m dreading having to bring my daughter to school and buy groceries tomorrow. Back to real life, I guess. Christmas break is over.
* I just want to lie in bed and sulk all day. Today I really want to quit!
* I felt nauseous most of the day which just made it harder. I hate feeling this way!
* My husband and I bought a Costco membership today and then I couldn’t find anything I was looking for which was really frustrating. I think it was even more upsetting after the day I’d had. I felt like nothing would go right.
* My skin is slowly starting to look and feel better! Yay!
* I had a great dinner – mashed red skin potatoes with homemade ranch and some olive oil in them and baked chicken. It felt so good to sit down and eat with my family with a delicious, Whole30 compliant meal.
* Overall, today was really hard, but I stuck with it and didn’t quit, which I’m proud of. Tomorrow is a new day!
* Exercised for 30 minutes. I still feel totally exhausted after (and during) my workouts. And I’m still hoping that fatigue goes away!
* Feeling nauseous again today, but my mood is great! I finally feel like I can do this!
* It makes me feel very empowered to make Whole30 compliant meals that taste good and satisfy me! I don’t feel hungry afterward and I feel proud. I don’t look forward to eating as much as I used to, but that might be a good thing. It’s no longer the center of my life!
* I’m beginning to see how life could be after the Whole30. I’m learning that I can make healthy choices (even though right now I HAVE to) when those around me aren’t. I don’t have to eat what everyone else is eating. I don’t think I’m to the point of being strong enough to do it on my own without the Whole30 yet, but I can kind of visualize myself being at that point someday.
* I am a little scared that when I’m done, I’ll forget everything. I just need to take it one day at a time and not worry that far ahead.
* I also feel better now that I got more groceries and have more food options.
* I’m not craving pop – at least most of the time.
* Today was great, it actually felt easy! Which is a nice change after yesterday, but makes me wonder how tomorrow will be.
* I had another delicious dinner today – basically the same thing as yesterday, but a hamburger instead of chicken breast. I sure do love mashed potatoes! Putting them away for a couple days because I know they’re not the healthiest choice.
* I feel totally exhausted by 7pm, but wide awake by 9pm. I guess I just need to rest a little in the early evening to get my energy back up.
* Exercised for 30 minutes (strength training portion of my walking DVD). Feeling okay and not totally exhausted afterward. Probably because it wasn’t cardio.
* It’s eye opening to see how much my body HASN’T changed (yet) on this “diet” – being so intense/restrictive. In the past, on other diets, I totally would have expected results by day 7 and I know those diets weren’t as restrictive. It’s crazy how we expect such small changes to bring big results and then are so disappointed when they don’t!
* I feel like I’m in a total different mindset than I’d be if I were doing a conventional diet. I feel good/happy and I don’t feel like I’m obsessing over food like I would be on any other diet.
* I don’t look forward to eating as much as I used to. (I still do, just not as much.) It’s more work not eating processed foods and it doesn’t taste as good as the bad-for-me-stuff I was eating. It still tastes good, but not AS good! Food is slowly losing its grip on me! This feels amazing!
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Okay, did that scare you or encourage you? Seriously, this has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. I’ve had to remind myself plenty of times that this is merely 30 days of my whole life. That’s 30 days out of a whole lot of days! I can do this.
I want to add that I have been reading the Whole30 book “It Starts with Food”. I really think it is a must read if you’re going to take on a Whole30 challenge. And read the science part of it, too. That’s what’s really getting to me. The way food (especially the processed stuff) affects your body and hormones and brain is just insane! I couldn’t believe how bad for me this stuff was. And how it takes control of you. I’m certainly not ready to say I’ll never have a cupcake again – hello, Valentine’s Day is coming up and I’ll be making cookies with my daughters! – but I do finally see that I need to drastically cut back on all the crap I put in my body. I just can’t treat it that way anymore.
I’m also seeing how much this challenge is teaching me emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. At the beginning I looked at it like it was all about the food and I wouldn’t get anything else out of it than a healthier, possibly slimmer body. I was so wrong! This challenge is (or at least hopefully will be) life changing. It has brought about a whole lot of deep thought about food and myself and self image. I needed this in every way and God knew that!
I hope this recap encourages you to start your own Whole30 challenge. Or at least gets you thinking more about how you treat your body. I’ll be back with a week two update next week. I’m feeling great right now, so I’m really interested to see how things change in the coming week. It can’t be great forever! Or can it?
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