Let me start out by saying that this post is incredibly difficult for me to write. Like, I might go throw up or start crying after I hit publish. It’s embarrassing and scary and I don’t want it to be real life, but it is. I had a craft fail twice this morning so I thought it would be a good time to take a break and write. Sometimes I just need to step away and reassess. So hopefully that craft will work out tonight or tomorrow or whenever and I’ll get to share it with you then!
Alright, no more delaying…here it is. So, I’m almost 30 (yikes!) and I still don’t have this “pick up after yourself” thing figured out. I work on a project, make dinner for the kids, paint a piece of furniture and then just leave my crap everywhere and don’t take care of it. Which reminds me…I have wax brushes that have been soaking since yesterday that I totally forgot about! Oh well…I’ll get to them! See, that’s just it. I get distracted by kids or other projects or the dog having to go out or just pure laziness and don’t come back to clean up. And then this happens.
Okay, so seriously, posting that makes me want to cry! It’s so disgusting, I know! This is what I like to call my basement. Others might call it a natural disaster area! It makes it even harder that it is kind of an “out of sight, out of mind” kind of thing since it is the basement. But let’s be real, my kitchen usually looks like a version of this, too!
Anyway, I have this disgusting habit of not picking up after myself paired with the blogger mindset of not being able to throw anything away because I might use that 2×2 inch piece of scrap fabric and if it’s gone I might just have a panic attack!
And more of this happens!
And all of that clutter in my home, starts to clutter my mind. I get so obsessed with the fact that I have to wade through all this junk to get to my painting supplies and move all of that crap to get to my craft supplies. And then I freak out. It just gets too overwhelming and my mind won’t stop thinking about it. Even if I clean a little bit, my mind focuses on the 90% that isn’t clean instead of the 10% that is. And I can’t focus on my blogging or projects or painting because I can’t stop thinking of that stupid mess!
And it certainly isn’t fair for my husband and children to live like this. There is (supposed to be) a little play area for the kids down here and you can’t even see it because it’s piled with random junk that we don’t need! I know, it isn’t all my job. I need to get better at asking the hubby and 3 year old to help me clean up, too. Because, in reality, it isn’t all mine. But I do need to change my ways if I ever want to live in peace. And if I ever want to have a beautifully remodeled basement (that stays that way!) that I mentioned on facebook last week.
So, now that these nasty pictures are out there for the world to see, I’m ready to make a change. I’m ready to take control of my life and not let this mess overtake me! It is time, almost 30 years into my life, to “pick up my toys”! I know I can do this. I know that it will take lots of little steps. But the more I do, the better I feel. And the less cluttered my mind is. And I don’t need to just do this because I want a clean house. I also want to do it to help grow my blog and my business. No, showing your junky basement won’t grow your blog. At least I don’t think it will! But having a decluttered home will help me get more projects done because I won’t have to spend 30 minutes looking for all my supplies!
Now that you’ve seen my horrible “before” pictures, stop back tomorrow so I can show you some inspiration for what I’d like the space to look like when it’s all remodeled and I’ve learned to put my stuff away! 🙂
P.S. If you have any (helpful and positive) tips for me, feel free to share them below! I obviously need all the help I can get!
P.P.S. – I might start sharing more posts like this. Not always showing you my junk, of course, but sharing more about the “behind the scenes”. I honestly feel so much better already just by writing it all down. I have always felt like I should only show the “pretty” on my blog, but to be honest, it gets exhausting. It’s so not real life! And I don’t want my readers to ever think I’m perfect or have the perfect this or that because I certainly do not!
Alright, I’m done now! See you tomorrow! 🙂